Anxious..

Justin and I finally registered for baby preparation classes today, and it hit me; I'm going to have a son in less than three months. I have no clue what the future has in store for me, what motherhood has in store for me. All I can hope for is that I try my best and that my best is good enough. Its an overwhelming emotion, this anxious feeling, the anticipation building up inside a person. It causes tears of joy to roll down one's face, the fear of the unknown is greater now than I have ever experienced.

Justin and I look forward to the day when we can finally look into our son's eyes and marvel in the little person that we have created. Regardless of the sleepless nights, the smelly diapers, and midnight feedings ahead; I can honestly say that this will be the biggest triumph in my 24 years of living. I can't wait to hear his coos and his sweet murmurs, his screams and his endless crying; every sound will be orchestrated into our biggest accomplishment, our son.